smoke on the water
<<2001-11-22 - 1:51 a.m.>>

i hate it. i hate her. i hate this whole fucking LIE i am living.

i don't love her. i can't stand her. so why the fuck am i still with her? she's wormed her way into my every fucking thought, every motion, every word i write. she is there with me all the time, and i can't get rid of her. it would be like cutting out my own heart. but it would cover up the cold, empty spot in me.

i wish i weren't such a bleeding idiot.

UGH.