you know what i say to that? i say BLARGH!!!!!
<<2002-01-26 - 9:01 p.m.>>

hmmmm... i'm on a coldplay/strokes kick now. claudia hasn't updated her diary since.... uhh... a couple days ago! nyooo! every time i read one of her entries, i learn something new (usually about the strokes, which is always good). so anyway.

i'm on a huge moulin rouge kick, too, which baffles me, because in reality i don't really like that movie. the only hottie in it is ewan, (and DAMNED if he isn't the finest piece of arse i've ever seen) and nicole kidman just generally rubs me the wrong way. the music's REALLY good, though, and it's got some funny parts. john leguizamo's speech-impediment midget was, admittedly, funny as hell. it was good. yeah. but there's no opportunity for slash, either, which generally makes me dislike any movie. it's a decent movie anyway, and i'm obsessed with it, though i have yet to figure out why. so yeah, that's it. fatboy slim's remix of "smells like teen spirit" is REALLY GOOD. go get it.

hmm... what else... i dunno. god, i'm sooo boring. argh! i went to saturday study hall today and basically just messed around. i never do anything important. well, i did see falbert and keeler there, which was coolass. (yay coolass... my new old word! and rad, rad's another new word.) but as i was walking from the car towards the building, falbert was about twenty feet behind me, and i was totally giddy and schoolgirly cuz i felt like i could feel his eyes on my back. (WISHFUL THINKING ALERT!) it was sooo creepy and i dunno it was weird as hell. and then later i said hi but uhh i was ignored.

ANYWAY.

omg, i WANT TO SEE the count of monte cristo. ARGH! O.O i want to go see it with my friend schu (not my gf schu, another schu, though this other schu was my gf at one point... hmm... ) because it totally seems like her type of movie. and it just looks cool. though a little campy. i mean, wtf is up with that trailer... "COUNT on revenge"? i believe we can do better than that, children. there's another movie i wanna see also but i forgot.

so yeah. i'm supposed to be working right now. i think i have to go to summer school. sux0rz...

anyway, time to buckle down and get a mite serious. a few days ago i was talking to a friend of mine about how annoyed i was that i felt i wasn't really... i dunno, "in touch with my emotions". and yesterday i had a huge mofo fight with my mom (which was why i didnt put up an entry) and then i cried for a while. i felt pathetic. and then afterwards... blah. it was like it never even happened. i had these INTENSE feelings of rage towards my mother not like, 36 hours ago, and i can't even begin to remember them now. and it kind of annoys me. my love for koi has become a bit mangled now too. whatever. see, i can never ever talk about my emotions because the words get in the way. it sucks! garrr. so i just give up. this diary is so lame anyway.

ps: hello, i am chris martin, and i am so cute it's just wild! ohhh and sam is online! EEK! should i im him? he's so odd. haha.

pps: ewan mcgregor has the most beautiful voice... sigh.