i found jesus behind the meat grinder
<<2002-02-28 - 9:08 pm>>

i got a new printer today, my gf got a high-paying job doing something she loves, aaaaand...

a senior at csw died.

her name was molly and she was beautiful. i didn't know her that well - in fact, i didn't associate her with the molly everyone was sobbing about until cozy told me later it was the same person. i never knew the wig she wore was fake, i always thought it was real, but i did find it a little odd that she didn't have eyebrows. but what would a csw student be without oddity? a regular student, that's what. and there are no regular students at csw. a few teachers went up and read some mary oliver poems, and everyone cried. i tried so hard not to cry; my throat got so tight i could barely even swallow or speak.

james has leukemia, as does michele. but jean-daniel is getting married to grace in a few months, and i get to go to the wedding. i don't play any big part, but it'll be nice to go.

i didn't talk to roberta today, unfortunately, because class started late. but since it's black history month, we also had a "spoken word performance artist" named anansie come in and read his political poems with a backdrop of coolass music. that was good. he was very moving; i'm gonna look into seeing him in a smaller club or something where the acoustics are better - i could barely hear him over the music and the people around me talking.

so anyway, i'm only gonna get more and more depressing if i keep at this so i'll just go. tomorrow will not be a depressing day, however, i have no school (there is a reason for that, but hell if i know what it is) and i am going to go vast-single-hunting. i also talked to a friend of mine who secretly loves jeff buckley more than anybody else i know right now (even more than roberta... woooh!!) and he's talked to me about going to visit jeff's memorial in a zoo in mississippi (i think it was) and stuff like that. maybe we'll pull it off this summer. if i do it, you guys can bet i'm bringing like eighteen rolls of film. and i'm gonna use em all.