GO CAT, GO!
<<2001-12-27 - 1:49 p.m.>>

it's weird how much i've left behind in the past few months. everything that used to be so important to me... i dunno. it's not anymore.

vast. that used to be like the reason i LIVED. now, i barely even listen to the cd anymore.

anime. another reason to live. i sort of am like.. weirded out by people who are as obsessed with it as i used to be. i dunno.

depression. focus of my life for nearly two years. plagued me alot.

gone.

everything mutated, nothin is the same. god, i don't even know what i'm talking about! it just feels like stuff is changing and I DON'T LIKE IT. i want to have control over it! plus when it's shifting AWAY from the things i used to love. that kind of sucks majorly.

grrr. i don't know. i just wish stuff wasn't the way it was.

don't worry, this isn't going to become a "i hate life, life hates me, people suck" type of diary. just one entry here and there, because it's true, you guys. people suck, and life is pretty shitty, while i'm at it. but, you know... who fucking cares? so it's a bunch of bollocks. don't let that stop you from enjoying yourself. do what you have to do, but do it knowing that once you're finished, you can do whatever you want. so whatever. i'm not interested in complaining about how much stuff sucks, cuz it's gonna suck like hell whether i bitch at you or not. and that's it.

i just wish it DIDN'T suck.